30 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is going. As the due date nears, I'm getting more anxious, nervous, and excited. It's amazing how many different emotions a woman can feel at one time while being pregnant. Men surely will never understand! I feel as if I have a list a mile long of things to get done before Eliza is here. My list only seems to get longer and longer. I know deep down inside that I've actually accomplished a lot of what I started out with, but things seem to keep piling up in this little head of mine. My grandmother told me the other day, that I've always been a worry wart. The nurses at the hospital when we had L even called me a worry wart, mostly because that's ALL I did while I was there, worry. I hate worrying so much all the time, it takes time away from my family and enjoying things in life. I think most of my worrying comes from anxiety. I've had a full blown anxiety/panic attack before, and ever since then my worrying seems to be off the charts. I really think I've done fairly well this pregnancy and it may be because I have a young child at home keeping me busy. One thing I must say about being pregnant, I've never really had to complain much! I know a lot of women who, when pregnant, would complain about how much they wish their pregnancy would hurry up and get over with. They just could not stand being pregnant. I, on the other hand, haven't had any major complaining to do. I was blessed with a good and healthy pregnancy with L, with the expectation of going into preterm labor at 35 weeks, and so far with this pregnancy, things are going smoothly. I continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy and baby, as that's all I want for now. I have also been asking God for his guidance as a mother of soon to be 2 children. I'm not sure I understand fully, just how much our lives are going to change with 2 young children at home. Maybe, I do understand I'm just taking it better then I expected.